Friday, October 14, 2005
† last pages †
Saturday, October 08, 2005
† somewhere only we know †
Friday, October 07, 2005
† chronic nail-biting †
Thursday, October 06, 2005
† paperworks and tests! †
Monday, October 03, 2005
† bestprends †
Sunday, October 02, 2005
† anger management †
Thursday, September 29, 2005
† low marketability analysis †
clue: i seldom talk at first encounters.
clue: 7 hash = one week.
clue: gusto ko sweet. (john lapuz is an exception)
Friday, June 24, 2005
† 50 first dates †
Drew Barrymore as Lucy, 50 first dates.
there's even the part where, they (she and adam) first kissed, and she said, "nothing beats the first kiss.". it's supposed to be funny 'coz she's like saying it everyday, but i feel sad for her, because a first kiss is supposed to be remembered. mahirap din sa part nung guy. kasi isipin mo naman dba, he has to win Lucy's heart everyday of his life.
but i honestly envy her. coz, at least she forgets...
san ba nakakabili ng "selective amnesia"? i think i badly need one. better yet, kailangan kong mamakyaw. =(
Thursday, June 23, 2005
† a free writing †
Monday, June 20, 2005
ü my first fanmail ü
Saturday, June 18, 2005 2:35:00 AM
hellow po! ako po ay isang malaking tagahanga ng iyong blogsite. Samakatunayan, lagi ko po itong binibisita. I admire you for how you look at things... Your blog is really a good read... I don't get tired of reading your posts nga eh, lahat po binasa ko.
Friday, June 10, 2005
† second to the last drama †
"mahal mo ba ako?"
maka-ilang beses ko na rin 'tong itinanong sayo. maraming beses mo na rin akong sinagot ng "oo", "siguro", "sigurado", "ewan" at "hindi". nakakalitong isipin kung bakit sa iisang tanong ay higit sa isa ang maari kong makuhang sagot pero nakakaaliw din na mas madalas kesa minsan, hindi ko inaasahan ang mga naririnig ko. ngayon kaya, ano ang isasagot mo?
sh*t! f*ck! past tense na nga pala at hindi present tense ng salitang "mahal" ang dapat gamitin. haay... pinagtaksilan na naman ako ng aking subconscious. nabubuko tuloy na ako ay isa't kalahating asa. but i can't blame you if you can't answer my question now as fast as definite answers should come out, because different people have different views on love. most people think that love is abstract, and maybe, it's the same reason why you left, because we can't see love from the same perspective. i was here and you were there. i was willing to meet you halfway but you ran away. i tried to catch up, only to find out you were running for someone else din pala.
"minahal mo ba ako?"
sinubukan kong pigilan ang sarili ko na magtanong. pinilit kong hanapin ang kasagutan ng ako lang mag-isa, pero ikaw lang talaga ang makakasagot n'yan.
pero kung ako ang masusunod...
sana hindi mo ako minahal. sana niloko mo na lang ako. sana laro lang ang lahat para sa'yo. kasi kung minahal mo 'ko, ayoko nang magmahal ulet. napakawalang-kwenta pala ng pagmamahal na 'yan. isa lang palang "commercial conspiracy" ang love para bumenta ang chocolates, flowers at stuffed toys tuwing Valentines. kung minahal mo ko, ang love pala parang buhay ni Juday sa "Mara Clara", ung tipong mas marami ang lungkot kesa sa saya, ang luha kesa sa tawa. kung minahal mo ko, masisira ang balanse ng mundo. kung minahal mo 'ko mas mangingibabaw ang yin kesa sa yang. kung minahal mo 'ko, may mga demonyo sa langit, may mga anghel sa impyerno at ako ay kasalukuyang nasa purgatoryo.
sana talaga hindi mo 'ko minahal. sana yang ang sagot sa napaka-kulit kong tanong. hindi iyon dahil sa galit ako sayo o sa nangyari sa'tin, kundi dahil sa gusto ko pang mahalin mo ayon sa alam kong dapat na kahulugan nito. ayon sa pagmamahal na alam kong deserving ako. gusto kong mahalin mo ko bilang ako lang at hindi bilang panakip-butas sa isang "tragic" na nakaraan. gusto ko pang maramdaman kung ano man ung gusto mong ipadama sa taong "tanga" na pinagsasayangan mo ng luha mo...
"mamahalin mo pa ba ako?"
alam kong hindi na. hindi lang hindi kundi "hinding-hindi." but i guess you should. 'cause you still haven't given me what i deserve.. i deserve to be loved to it's fullest meaning and deepest core. gaya ng pagmamahal ko sa'yo.
***
writer's note.
hindi ko po ginamit ang salitang "pag-ibig" dahil ako po ay nakokornihan sa salitang iyon. saka ko na gagamitin iyo pag may asawa na ako at nasa tamang edad. ito po ay ginawa ko nung bakasyon dahil laging walang ilaw samen at walang ibang mapaglibangan kundi ang magmukmok at magmuni-muni. parang ganito. muni muni muni muni muni muni muni muni muni muni muni muni... at magmuni-muni pa ulet. üü
Thursday, June 09, 2005
† masarap pala ang shopao †
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
† ang tattoo ni nanay †
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
† class sched †
Schedule for 1st Semester of Junior Year, S.Y. 2005 - 2006
MONDAYS:
Asian Civilization 1:00-2:30PM AVA-4
Social and Political Theories and Movements 2:30-4:00PM AVA-5
TUESDAYS:
Foundations of Education I 1:00-2:30PM AVA-4
Rural and Urban Sociology 2:30-4:00PM AVA-4
Curriculum Development 5:30-8:30PM AVA-4
WEDNESDAYS:
Foundations of Education II 11:30-2:30PM AVA-1
World Geography 2:30-5:30PM AVA-1
THURSDAYS:
Asian Civilization 1:00-2:30PM AVA-4
Social and Political Theories and Movements 2:30-4:00PM AVA-5
FRIDAYS:
Foundations of Education I 1:00-2:30PM AVA-4
Rural and Urban Sociology 2:30-4:00PM AVA-4
Educational Evaluation 5:30-8:30PM AVA-4
ako po ay may cellphone na ulet. wakokokok... i'll post my number later. bibili pa lng kasi me ng sim. because i'm always broke, sun cel sim na lng cguro bibilin ko para unlimited. text me ok? luv yah!
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
† a three (3.00) †
Monday, May 30, 2005
01: top 5 people i don't want to have anything to do with.
oh no! don't get me wrong please. i don't hate her ok? in fact, i used to like her. "used to..." her mom is really a nice lady. you see, she was my ex's bestfriend and sometimes she can really get a little pesky. talk about obssessive compulsiveness. i remember one tym at the mall when my ex promised me he'd take me to a movie when this girl showed up and in a whiny, authoritative voice, she muttered, "uy anniel sasamahan nya ako na maglunch ok lang?" (referring to my ex) and she turned to the guy and said, "sasamahan mo 'ko dba? dba!?..." (notice the exclamation point?)
okay, so u myt say that i over-reacted. you myt say that maybe she's just not comfortable with being alone. i guess not, because that time she's with two girlfriends and her suitor who, apparently became her bf. i mean... kulang pa ba c cielo, c jho at c elmer para samahan syang kumain? kailangan ba talagang kasama pa c yoh? and by the way she spoke, it's as if she wants only yoh and i'm not part of the package. she could've said "samahan NYO ako at hindi "sasamahan ako ni yoh!" if she also wanted me to come. ano gusto nya maiwan akong mag-isa?
and the silly guy said nothing. he's no good at saying "no!" except to me. i guess it was also my fault anyway, cause i didn't said anything too, hoping that somehow she'd feel an inch of "hiya" on her skin. (bye bye to the movies..) haay... 164th promise broken.
as i've said, i don't hate her, i just don't think we'd connect after things are over and done with. we're better off as strangers.
a certain professor, told the class that we could ask this JC guy anything about English Grammar because he gave this JC a one, a flat one. it didn't intimidate me, not even a bit, cause when he handed me a script about the play we are to produce, there's around four or five grammatical errors, or wrong spellings per page in the manuscript. enuff said. i wanted to proofread it, but of course i don't want his ego to crash 6 feet under the avanceña grounds.
Monday, May 09, 2005
† jopay... miss na kita †
alam mo yan? Jopay by Mayonnaise... tuwang tuwa ako sa kanta na yan e... saka sa vocalist... wala lang.. para kasi syang c reuben studdard. saka it's a happy song dba? i mean, who wouldn't like jopay? sa sexbomb dancers nga siya favorite ko e... ala lng. alam mo un.. kainggit sya.. kasi happy ung kwento nya. ala lng.. buti pa sya.. masaya...
eto pa isang fave ko.. Turon by Kamikazee.
o dba? ang saya saya ng kanta... lolz.. hehehe.. ala lng.. nakakatuwa dba? download mo.. matutuwa ako sa'yo. hehe.. try mo rin ung chinelas.. nakakatuwa din.. cge gunbound muna ako! double hammer pa lng ako e..
Sunday, April 24, 2005
† breakdown †
Sunday, April 17, 2005
† coincidence? †
so many things have happened for a short span of time...
well, i don't know if its just coincidence, or maybe things really are falling in the right places for me, coz when my eX shut his door for me, someone opened the window, and it's a garden outside. lolz
i can't say i'm completely happy. miss ko pa rin c *labidabs. pero kumbaga sa sugat, wound scab na lang meron sakin. nyahahaha! thanks to my medic.
well, i met someone just recently, he's a nice guy, we're friends, and i'm not looking forward for us being more than that for now. saka, ala lng, basta. he's too ideal, sabi nga ni Pug sa "everything's eventual" ni stephen king, this is "eventual".
he's a rich kid. and he looks pretty fine, and he's really nice. we met sa mall, but friends na kami sa ym for a while. ayun. na share ko lang. basta... he's like an angel u know? i just hope he won't turn out as nasty sa lucifer. >=) bwahahaha
anyways... he called me kanina. isipin mo un.. may nagsasayang ng load nya for me. ala kasi me landlyn e. lolz. e aun, na text ko sya knina first thing in the morning, kasi tatlo lang naman ang cell# na ako ung nag input sa haushold cp, c jelz, c eX, saka c mr. naughtynicey.
ayun, tinext ko sya dba? den he replied if pede nya ako tawagan, then i said sure. tapos he called me up na agad. e kakagising ko lng, (1pm na po ako nagigicng tuwing bakasyon) kaya bedroom voice pa ako, parang malat na ganun. kakahiya tuloy. lolz.
so ayun.. we talked about things... small stuffs lng naman. kumustahan ganun, the usual "anu gawa mo?", "nung oras ka nagising?", and other silly stuffs na pang sayang lang ng load. feeling ko naman kasi wala lng talaga syang magawa or makausap in that sense. e since natutuwa sya sakin, (sabi nya ha?) kaya ako cguro tinawagan nya. saka balak nya cguro me gwaing payaso. lolz... tapos... tapos...
wala nang eggnog. tulog na tau! hehehe! ^__^
ewan ko ha.. pero here's the catch.. ito ung cnasabi kong coincidence... this song was being played sa background nya.. sa winamp cguro ng pc nya. notice the lyrics? para kasing ala lng. swak na swak.
Tell Me Where It Hurts - M.Y.M.P. (Make Your Mader Paker)
Why is that sad look in your eyes?
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!
Is it your heart?
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do?
[CHORUS:]
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts, now tell me
And I'll love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay,
I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from?
Why are they falling?
Somebody, somebody,
somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
haay... enuff said! pero basta... the thought of him makes me happy. kaso lang naisip ko... lahat naman ganyan sa cmula eh dba? dba darenot2fall? ^__^