gosh.. i didn't know i'm so into love letters pala.. kasi while i was chekin my bf's friendster account.. especially the messages.. (for transparency daw, don't worry he knows my password too) i saw a message i sent him two months ago.. ayun.. ma-i-share ko lng.. eto na po! ang aking ka-corny-han! ehehe.. feel free to laugh out loud okay?
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004 5:44:00 AM
Subject: ei.. minsanan lang 2!!
Message: ei.. it's not normal for me to be doing this but at least i want to try to pour out my feelings thru things like this na before e nakokornihan ako.. pero ganun talaga cguro if u luv a person unconsciously magbabago ka sa ayaw at sa gusto mo.. like now.. i guess i really love you na.. ung todo todo.. ung matindi.. di ko nga alam how you put my defenses down e kasi way back i promised myself na di ako magmamahal ng sobra sobra kasi nga i dont want to hurt myself and i dont want to be dubbed as a stupid person especially if the relationship goes wrong pero with you i wanted to give everything and i'm not afraid to try anything.. although may mga restrictions and rules akong sine-set i know ako rin naman sisira nun if it doesn't make you happy.. i hope you know that you're the only one and i hope the last one.. these past few days i can't get you out of my head and it's really freaky kasi nga i don't like these feelings alam mo naman ako ayaw na nasasaktan ayaw na nagmumukhang tanga di naman sa wala akong tiwala sayo kaya inaaway kita sa mga bagay bagay etc.. (textmates/mirc/friendster) pero kasi sa sarili ko ako walang tiwala kasi i don't know for how long i can maintain your happiness kasi i'm not as perfect as i percieve myself to be and feeling ko sa mga inuugali ko and thru my actions nakakasawa akong kasama. i really don't like being alone.. okay lang pero kasi parang inaalis mo na ung instinct ko ng independence. lam mo un ung parang masyado na me nasasanay na anjan ka kaya eto ako prang tanga nagiging paranoid na..di ka nmn kinukulang ng assurance e.. lam ko nmn na luv mo ko pero tlagang insecure lng ako.. saka isa pa happy ako kasi na-kilala kita saka di ka nag-give up agad like when i said "no" when u asked me kung pedeng maging tau.. saka natutuwa ako when u replied "okay lang.. i'll ask you the same question everyday and sana you'll say yes din".. nun ko na prove na ur really serious and now ako super serious na kaya eto nababaliw na yata ako naiinis nga ako sa mga taong ganito mag isip pero tingnan mo ko nagtataype pa ng mga kakornihan na ganito. haay.. masakit na fingers ko kata-type.. pero it all boils down to this lang naman e.. i love you so much and i'm so afraid to lose a very nice person like you. thanks for spending time with me nung night ng dec. 21. i wont forget that and definitely i wont forget you. mwah! luv you!! kaw lang talaga.. iyo lang ako saka akin ka lang.. sasaksakin ko mga e-epal.. mwah! miss you already. mwahuggz!
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004 5:44:00 AM
Subject: ei.. minsanan lang 2!!
Message: ei.. it's not normal for me to be doing this but at least i want to try to pour out my feelings thru things like this na before e nakokornihan ako.. pero ganun talaga cguro if u luv a person unconsciously magbabago ka sa ayaw at sa gusto mo.. like now.. i guess i really love you na.. ung todo todo.. ung matindi.. di ko nga alam how you put my defenses down e kasi way back i promised myself na di ako magmamahal ng sobra sobra kasi nga i dont want to hurt myself and i dont want to be dubbed as a stupid person especially if the relationship goes wrong pero with you i wanted to give everything and i'm not afraid to try anything.. although may mga restrictions and rules akong sine-set i know ako rin naman sisira nun if it doesn't make you happy.. i hope you know that you're the only one and i hope the last one.. these past few days i can't get you out of my head and it's really freaky kasi nga i don't like these feelings alam mo naman ako ayaw na nasasaktan ayaw na nagmumukhang tanga di naman sa wala akong tiwala sayo kaya inaaway kita sa mga bagay bagay etc.. (textmates/mirc/friendster) pero kasi sa sarili ko ako walang tiwala kasi i don't know for how long i can maintain your happiness kasi i'm not as perfect as i percieve myself to be and feeling ko sa mga inuugali ko and thru my actions nakakasawa akong kasama. i really don't like being alone.. okay lang pero kasi parang inaalis mo na ung instinct ko ng independence. lam mo un ung parang masyado na me nasasanay na anjan ka kaya eto ako prang tanga nagiging paranoid na..di ka nmn kinukulang ng assurance e.. lam ko nmn na luv mo ko pero tlagang insecure lng ako.. saka isa pa happy ako kasi na-kilala kita saka di ka nag-give up agad like when i said "no" when u asked me kung pedeng maging tau.. saka natutuwa ako when u replied "okay lang.. i'll ask you the same question everyday and sana you'll say yes din".. nun ko na prove na ur really serious and now ako super serious na kaya eto nababaliw na yata ako naiinis nga ako sa mga taong ganito mag isip pero tingnan mo ko nagtataype pa ng mga kakornihan na ganito. haay.. masakit na fingers ko kata-type.. pero it all boils down to this lang naman e.. i love you so much and i'm so afraid to lose a very nice person like you. thanks for spending time with me nung night ng dec. 21. i wont forget that and definitely i wont forget you. mwah! luv you!! kaw lang talaga.. iyo lang ako saka akin ka lang.. sasaksakin ko mga e-epal.. mwah! miss you already. mwahuggz!
