I've always thought of myself as a strong person. I mean, I don't cry a lot and I'm proud of it. I can control my anger, and bottle up my feelings until I can shrug it off. I can always put up a smile even when I don't feel like it and I can easily laugh when I'm stuck in any uneasy situations. But I guess even steels rust, and that goes the same for me. I guess I'm not as confident as I think before about myself. Especially now when I have many things to rave about. Since I've been commited?.. and I found out it's not really all flowers and butterflies, or heaven and the stars, or sunset at the ocean. Sometimes, commitment can be a swarm of flies, or an unflushed toilet, or the polluted Manila skies. *sigh* eh sa ganun talaga.. I guess it's really that way, or meant to be that way. Particulary in the kind of relationship that I am in. I do expect more bullsh*ts than ice creams. That's why I'm fixing this blog. At least I can have a hideaway, or an outlet for my overwhelming feelings, or when I'm feeling insecured/jealous and I feel like cursing people. Feel free to check out my mga panlalait here oki?
Another thing, it's a new year. 2005. I'll be turning 18 this January 18, and if my laziness doesn't get into my nerves, this can be something I could look back to about five years from now. I usually laugh at my past u know? eheheh.. I also don't want my "writings" (short for -pieces of crap) left unseen by those people I want to be seeing it. Flattery easily sinks into my head so I guess it was more of a help for me if people say nice things about me rather than critique my writing skills.
Lastly, I want this blog to be a fragment of someone, like a reminder ya know? Look at Adam, Maroon5's vocalist. He did a lot of nice songs and compiled it into an album entitled "Songs About Jane". Who knows? This blog might be a source of songlyrics after me and my other half breaks-up. Or maybe not. wahehehe.. nice way of thinking nielz.. Ü
Another thing, it's a new year. 2005. I'll be turning 18 this January 18, and if my laziness doesn't get into my nerves, this can be something I could look back to about five years from now. I usually laugh at my past u know? eheheh.. I also don't want my "writings" (short for -pieces of crap) left unseen by those people I want to be seeing it. Flattery easily sinks into my head so I guess it was more of a help for me if people say nice things about me rather than critique my writing skills.
Lastly, I want this blog to be a fragment of someone, like a reminder ya know? Look at Adam, Maroon5's vocalist. He did a lot of nice songs and compiled it into an album entitled "Songs About Jane". Who knows? This blog might be a source of songlyrics after me and my other half breaks-up. Or maybe not. wahehehe.. nice way of thinking nielz.. Ü
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