† gone †

Sorry if it took me some time to think-over the things that I told you a couple of hours ago. I guess love really makes people dumb… and I’ve been dumb for two months.

I know I cannot make you happy. I mean, I can but I ‘m afraid I can’t sustain the happiness you need for too long. Everything I can give you is limited, considering the kind of relationship that we’re in. I know one day you’ll wake up thinking that you wanted more, more than I could give, more than I could offer, more than I could handle, in a life that I can’t live. Do you remember the time when I told you that if ever I realized that I love you intensely, I would let go of you while I’m still able to? I’m so sorry but I think that realization came to me now. It’s sad to accept but I can feel that sooner or later, this letter would materialize either from me or from you and it’s better to do it now while I still have more nice thoughts of you rather than the not-so-nice ones.

Within a short span of two months, you have made me feel special which no one outside of my bloodline have ever done. When I’m with you I feel so secured, like there’s no existing death, time, or even deadlines at school. You are the first major decision in my life I stood up with. You’ve made every wrong decision I took in the past worthwhile because I couldn’t have met you if I took the right ones. I know it wouldn’t be easy to forget you even if I already have a family of my own, more so if I don’t. You’re the other missing half that made me whole.

I hope you won’t think I’m selfish because of this and I want you to fully understand that this was more of for you than for me. Please make things easier for us and if you do, I’ll be assuming that someday. Someplace, we’ll meet again and you’ll greet me with the “right one” by your side while saying “thanks” in the back of your head.

As for me, I’d still be wishing to be someone’s “right one” and if life won’t permit me to, I’ll be contented with the thought that one time; I met someone on earth who made it all worth it.

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"A bird may love a fish... but where would they live?"
-Ever After (starring Drew Barrymore)

"Would the bird clip it's wings?"
"Would the fish risk it's fins?"

Simply, love can't change everything...